Thursday, May 3, 2007

Thinking




Thinking.

Can't stop thinking.

Think of you.

This.

That.

That Life.

That day.

That dream was mine.

A utopian dream.

Your aura; struck me like lightning to a tree.

Pointy, like a star, you shone.

So bright, yet not shining as a star would,

But as apparent as white chalk on a blackboard.

You would not show off like a star.

Yet you did burn so hot,

so fiercely,

so explosively -

you were a star in my eyes.

But like all stars, you died.

That gas was gone.

No pull between us.

The atmosphere was dryand I began to choke.

I was taken from my star - like a child being taken from its poor,drunken mother -

I did not know what was happening.

Dazed.

Confused.

Without true reality,

I there sat.

Wondering.


The end of my world had only just begun, with yours beginning.

A Broken HEart....


I really love you,

but you love someone else.

When I see you,

I can't close my eyes.

I just want you to say how much you care about me.

But you love someone else.

I just want to hear "I love you" out of your mouth.

I hear it in my mind,

It's just like a sound.

But it's just a dream,

Because you love someone else


Unfaithfull

haayyy... im so confuse and hurt right now... i dont know what to do.. confused about someone/something...
are u faithfull? do you still love him? r u having an affair? these are the questions in my mind right now.. (hey im not talking about myself ha!!!..)
i noticed it 3 days ago.. i thought it was my imagination so i didnt mind it first... but as the days goes by ive noticed that you've changed a lot....you're not the same anymore.. it seems that you're hiding something...
first i noticed ur closeness to him.. the way you treat him...and other things n di mo ginagawa dati pero ngaun ginagawa mo na.... small things pero i noticed it.. i thought first masyado lng akong nag-iisip.. pero lately.. iba na eh... especially nung mbasa ko yung msg m sa knya... para kong binuhusan ng malamig n tubig...and it hurt me so much.. coz i respect u a lot and admire u for being such a good ===== and ======..... masakit isipin n magagawa m yan... s family m and s amin.. gosh... of all people ikaw pa pla ang gagawa nyan...and of all people bakit SYA pa!!!! bkit s knya p????sana yung s di ko/ namin kilala eh... god...of all people...
i dont know kung my ibang nkakaalam n nito or kung n noticed m n alam ko na... ang hirap hirap ksi wala akong mpagsabihan kya i decided to write it n lng d2... ayokong mwala yung respect nila sau... ayokong magkagulo kya siguro i will keep it to myself n lng... still right now d p rin ako mkapaniwala.. i want to believe na it is just my imagination, n panaginip lng to...n hindi ito totoo.. pero i know that im wrong...
i dont know what will happen.. pero im praying n sana malaman mo n you're wrong... youre not only destroying yourself, but also YOUR family (especially your son) , @ OUR Family !!!!
arrgh... i dont know what to do anymore.......................